The creative genius we know as Michaelangelo once said, “I am still learning”.
So that must make me pretty freakin’ smart because I am still learning. I’m still learning to be a good wife, an even better mom, and a business owner. I’m pretty sure I’m borderline CRAZY to be going after everything I am, but sometimes you just have to listen to that little voice inside. Finding that balance and keeping everyone happy in this crazy journey I call my life; it’s a learning experience, hands down. But, one I wouldn’t trade for the world.
So what keeps me going?
Well, I’m blessed. There is this man in my life, I call him Dad. He taught me what it meant to go after something you loved. To hold that entrepreneurial spirit, feed it, and watch it grow into something AMAZING. Lucky for me, I married the kinda guy who believes in me and that same spirit. (He’s totally a keeper). He loves seeing that twinkle in my eyes when I am doing what I love. He stays up until 2am weeding vinyl with me, and he’ll nag me when I haven’t blogged in a week (it’s his way of pushing me, and showing me he cares- I think). He’ll clean out a storage closet (all while knowing he’ll never get this space back), displacing many of his tools, to make room for my business supplies.
Our date nights are few and rarely involve dinner and movie, but most certainly include a trip to Hobby Lobby and Starbucks. He keeps me young. He keeps me motivated. He keeps me falling in love. With him. With Life. With my dreams. He reminds me that I am worthy of that dream and that, that dream has become his too.
He understands that I have a LOT going on and sometimes I just need that quality time with my people, my tribe, to fuel me. Yes, that quality time (accompanied by wine) is my love language. He gets that. And for that alone he scores some major brownie points.
You can usually find me in some form of Fabletics and oversized sweatshirt chasing around our two little boys and trying to keep up with our nearly 7 year old daughter’s attitude all while rockin’ the tallest pineapple ever! Yeah, I’m always rocking the pineapple, and yes, I wear it tall! (#totalmomlife) But as I’m chasing, and fighting, and being all “Mom”, I’m also on my phone working 2 different businesses, trying to step over the landmine of Thomas the trains on the floor as I attempt to check my fabric inventory, while waiting for a YouTube video to load on the laptop explaining common core math in some ill attempt to understand it. Yet again.
I’m still learning. I’m learning to appreciate. I’m learning to balance. I’m learning patience. I’m learning to surrender.
I am learning it is ok to walk away and lock myself in the bathroom for 2 minutes of solitude to cry because I lost my cool and feel like the #worstmomever.
I am learning that it is ok to carve out time for me.
I am learning what it feels like to hit the lowest of lows.
I am learning “For better or Worse”.
I am learning “In sickness and in health”.
I am learning to surrender to my Faith.
I am learning to disregard the judgement of others simply because what I want out of life doesn’t follow the “norm”.
This is who I am. This is my life. It’s chaotic. It’s trying. It’s awesome. It’s imperfectly perfect. Over the past year and a half, I’ve truly learned to appreciate the story I am writing. I am learning to be patient in the journey. I am learning to surrender myself to the here and now. Because when I let my head dwell on my dreams for the future, or allow myself to stare at my failures of the past, I’m missing everything right in front of me, in the present. The shenanigans, the lessons, and the constant reminder of why I am doing ME every day. I’ve come SO far, but there is still so much to learn.
XO,
Melissa
